Last Few Days

>> Sunday, January 24, 2010

- Work life is busy. Added responsibilities. Which is a good thing since many people seem to have that kind of confidence in me. Makes me slightly nervous. Hope I can live up to their expectations. The next few weeks shall be very hectic. Nice. Since I had become very lazy.
- Ran the marathon last Sunday. The dream run. Great experience. Amazing how total strangers irrespective of class, creed, race, religion,colour, gender, come out to cheer others. There were live bands, music, and a general carnival atmosphere. Plan to run the half marathon next year. have to train for it though. Would be fun to run on the Bandra Worli sea link.
- Met friends the week before. It was an overnight thing. My trekking group. And we were laughing non stop for 5 hours. Drank a lot. Went out for street side coffee at 330 in the morning. Did not sleep the entire night, sang songs, danced, opened champagne and had a fabulous time. Having such good friends is such a blessing.
- Saw a play yesterday at Prithvi. "Sex, Morality and Censorship". It was about censorship in art. Specifically in theatre. Awesome play. Must watch. Amazing scripting, great acting and fabulous everything... It was an eyeopener for me. It was based on a Marathi play and the furore it created in the 70's. I am a Maharashtrian and its a pity that I know so little about my own culture.
- After the play went out for dinner with a friend and her date. The date found me more interesting than her, made it very obvious, she too noticed it. I did not like the feeling and felt like an intruder. Tried to be rude to him and act uninteresting. He has sent me a friend request on FB. I think I shall ignore it. Makes me think, "Why does it always happen that the wrong types fall for me and I manage to drive the interesting ones away?"
- And among all the above activities , I missed him terribly. Could not (cant) get him out of my mind. It did not help that we had an argument and are not in touch since the last 3 weeks or so. I so so wanted him to be with me when I was doing all the above things. But I know that it was not my fault in whatever happened and I just spoke my mind. Too bad that he does not seem to think so. Should I initiate a conversation again? But I have taken efforts and he does not seem to want to reciprocate. I have to be strong.
- Am going for a trip to Alibaug in a couple of weeks. Looking forward to that. Should be fun.
My social life is quite busy which is a really good thing. But there is something missing. Wish that something could be fixed magically . *sigh*.

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Is it Love?

>> Sunday, January 03, 2010

He insists that I am in love with him.

I say I am not.

Yes, I do care about him.

Yes, I do think about him a lot. In fact I think about him all the time.

Yes, I am fond of him.

But no, I don’t think I am in love.

He does not seem convinced.

Which makes me think: Am I really in love with him?

Which also makes me think: Is he in love with me? I am scared to ask him that. What if the answer is yes?

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